This blog begins as my wife, Karli, and I come to terms with the recent diagnosis of anaplastic large cell lymphoma in our 8 month old son, Oliver. My intent is to keep our friends, family and interested parties informed, and to hopefully help Karli and I to process this unwelcome intrusion into the life of our beautiful little boy.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
No News is Good News
I am sorry for our lack of updates over the last month.
Oliver has had all of his end of treatment tests & scans, except for his PET Scan which is scheduled for 26th August. So far the results are good and there is no sign of cancer. PHEW! What a relief! We will have all results by 4th September, so we will endeavour to keep you posted.
Simon has started Uni and had his first prac placement today at Charlies - it was mostly orientation. He also started back at work this week after taking 5 weeks off to have a break with us & get started at Uni.
Oliver and I have managed somewhat of a routine this week. We head off for a walk in the mornings - good for my mind & my thighs! Nowdays though due to having an active little man, this walk at some point must contain some out of the pram time; in the form of pram pushing (by Oliver), walking & playing at the playground. This is all fun stuff which I love, but I find I do have to be in the right frame of mind to partake in it & remain patient. Speaking of patience, mine has been lacking of late & I have found particularly this week, that Oliver is more than willing to test it. It seems everything has become a battleground, from not wanting to wear slippers to constantly wanting to watch the T.V.
There is plenty more to say, but I am keen to snuggle up on the couch with a cuppa & some chocolate.
Au revoir for now!
Lots of Love
Karli (Simon & Oliver)
Monday, July 13, 2009
End of Treatment
After Oliver's last treatment we headed south to Busselton. We had OK weather, but enough wet and stormy weather to satisfy my desire for some winter and to create puddles for our amazing little man. Whilst it wasn't fantastic, with Oliver still being on his meds for half the time, I'm glad we marked the occasion in some way.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Been A While
So here it is, Oliver's treatment concludes next Monday - by which time we will be in Busselton having what some would class as a holiday, but I am thinking I should term it something different like 'A home away from home', so that I dont get too disappointed. Dont get me wrong, I am very thankful to be able to get away and I do love staying in Busselton in the winter enjoying the rain and what some would term 'miserable' weather - we both do, but the catch is Oliver will be on treatment & then recovering from it for most of while were away. As I write I realise what I need to keep in mind is that one day soon we will be able to have a holiday free from anything to do with cancer - hopefully!
I am kind of wondering if we will get presented with some kind of medal on Wednesday as we venture into PMH for Oliver's last treatment, I definitely feel like we deserve one. I know that the nurses will mention it & that people will be excited for us. This is lovely, but what I myself have been realising of late, is that there are a lot of thoughts and emotions that Simon and I have not been able to process during this time of surviving Oliver's treatment that will now have the opportunity to surface. As well as hearing from other parents whose children have been through treatment for cancer, that the end of the treatment spells CRASH for the parents. I guess I want to warn some of you that I am not expecting life to be all sunshine & roses as soon as Oliver has finished his treatment.
On a positive note, we are off to buy gumboots tomorrow in preparation for lots of 'puddle jumps' down south. Oliver thoroughly enjoys puddles, in fact Simon has some footage of this & I am talking huge puddles at Hyde Park so I will have to get him to include that. Right now he is cooking us dinner, which he has been doing a lot, he does it so well, I figure I might as well give him the satisfaction of producing lovely meals, hee hee. I am thankful that Simon is creative and happy to cook, because it is certainly a daily task that I struggle with. In the past we have called ourselves 'Team Roebuck' and I think this rings true, as we do work well as a team.
Well I wonder how life has been for everyone reading this of late? I would love to hear updates on how you are all going.
Bye for now
Love the Roebucks
Friday, June 19, 2009
Resorting to Chocolate
It is only just after 6am and already I am into the chocolate. Oliver has been awake since 5:15am, with a poo which I changed & then put him back to bed, since then he has continued to chatter, mostly to say Dad, Dad, Dad. I gave up the notion of going back to sleep a while ago & then was getting so agitated in bed I decided to get up. My rule is that I won’t get Oliver up until 6:30am.
I just read Simons latest blog entry and so softened that I went in to settle my son as he had been crying for the last 10 minutes, at last there is silence – for how long? I don’t know!
I am losing my patience. Yesterday I was very close to losing it too. I picked/swung Oliver up yesterday roughly & he just looked at me with these wide eyes, he knew I was mad & we stared at each other for half a second & then I just made a funny exasperated noise. I know it is still the drugs affecting his behaviour, he has about a 5 second attention span, perhaps it is actually a few minutes, but to me it feels like 5 seconds.
Another favourite in his vocabulary is Nan Nan to which following he makes a dog noise, which means he wants to go and see Nanna & Bindi (their dog). So because the weather was yucky & I felt we needed to get out of our house to a different scene, we drove down to Nanna’s just to visit Bindi as everyone else was at work. This is where I noticed the 5 second attention span, as I was hoping he would be enamoured enough with the dog & the different toys at Nanna’s that I could have a cup of tea – silly me! Silly me for even making a cup of tea as that ended up spilt on Nanna & Grandad’s rug, lucky it is a colourful one, so the spilt tea is not too noticeable, it was whilst cleaning this up with Oliver motioning that he was ready to go home, followed by him playing on the stairs & then hurting himself that I then picked him up roughly.
Needless to say yesterday was a long, tough day. We both missed Simon as he had been home with us for the past 5 days.
You may well notice that it has been a long while since I have written on the blog & I admire Simon's dedicaton to being able to do so, despite how he is feeling. For me I have been battling with anxiety & depression and so therefore have not felt like writing.
So back to the tea & chocolate, I confess to being at it again, but I have had breakfast in between. After giving Oliver his 1st breakfast of cornflakes & peaches in his highchair, then his 2nd breakfast of toast & milk at his table, doing some chores, playing trucks, reading stories - I am exhausted and you would not believe it, I am not even finished my cup of tea and my little blessing is awake again - so off I go for Round 2 of the day, knowing that Simon will be home shortly makes it not so overwhelming.
Ta ta for now
Love Karli
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Resilience
He can't tell us what he is really feeling. We can only go on what he displays to us. I often wonder if he feels rotten sometimes, but is so used to it, it's normal. I wonder what sort of threshold he will have for pain and illness when he is older. I have no doubt he'll be a lot tougher than his soft dad.
A few weeks back I took Oliver to see his Grandpa and his wife in York. Uncle Jason and cousin Kaitlin were there too. Oliver loved spending time with Uncle Jason, and I think Uncle Jason liked it too.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
In The Park
My favourite place to take Oliver is Hyde Park. He doesn't mind it either.
As Oliver has grown, he has changed what he does and likes to do. He's happy to wander around without his trolley now, although it still gives him more balance and pace so we take it just in case. Although he get's so excited about seeing the ducks, he doesn't seem that interested once we get there - but he's happy to sit and watch them during his rest and snack periods. He started to chase the magpies and mudlarks yesterday, and will plop himself down in a pile of leaves and just start picking them up, looking at them quizzically, then putting them down. One of his favourite pass times at the park has been to push his little Tonka truck along the benches and walls. He has also taken to the slide. The park has a few different play areas for different ages which means that there is a slide with a much gentler slope and distance. He will climb up the stairs, back himself onto the slide, then slip down on his belly, feet first. Very ingenious, and it brings a lovely smile to his face too.